CELIBACY.

  I am a very sexual person. I don't see myself as a nympho. I just like good sex and I'm stupidly open-minded. I'm only twenty-two and I think I have done everything.

  Recently I have been making lovey-dovey feelings take over my life because of sex. I love being single and I hate pressure. I feel like most people around me want to fuck and it is getting annoying. I don't know how not to be myself. I can meet someone for the first time and if I like the person's vibe I feel free to talk about anything that is on my mind. Sex is a topic that everyone finds interesting so the moment that comes up and I free my mind I start getting hit on. It is becoming irritating. I always feel like I have ''FUCK ME'' written on my damn forehead. The fact that I am open doesn't mean I'll fuck.

  To me, sex is art. I feel like an artist during intercourse. I get this emotional rush. I feel like whoever and I are the only ones in the world and at that particular moment the person is my only care in the world. Pure pleasure. I don't get attracted to people's appearance. I won't fuck you because you are beautiful or handsome. I'll fuck you because of where your mind is at.

  I have named this post celibacy because as at midnight today, I decided to become celibate. Sex is complicating my life. Too much emotion running around. I'll start having sex again when I meet someone who I want to be in a real relationship with.

I hurt someone last week and I'm feeling really bad about it. Although it is not entirely my fault it is my fault. (I don't know if you understand it but I can't be bothered explaining it).Sometimes following your instincts gets you out of drama that could easily be avoided.

I hope I dont get tempted.